A couple of months ago I was looking at this summer and chose to have more space, not fill my calendar. Do some fun stuff, have some classes and have time enough to write.
And here I am... after hosting and being part of the classes the last weeks, its was intense and I worked more than 24/7, now I am grateful to be here. Space for creation. And so happy for the timing. Blossom has this challenge of creation, 30 days. Of course I will join.
I started writing on my book last year and some this year and I could not find the joy to write. I had prioritized other things in my life.
Now I am here and will write as much as I can.
Here is a little bit of what I wrote today....
When I first began to write I thought I had to be VERY special to write a book, you know like enlightened or changed the whole world, so that was not me.
What did I do…? Start with a blog Lisen. At the same time I had an issue with my spelling, as I have so many languages in my head, I tend to express some things a bit different and you might even be able to figure out from what languages it originates. I decided to get over myself and do tons of mistakes. At that time my boyfriend sometimes asked me to change a sentence or two as it meant something completely different than I intended. Ups!!!
What did I do…? Start with a blog Lisen. At the same time I had an issue with my spelling, as I have so many languages in my head, I tend to express some things a bit different and you might even be able to figure out from what languages it originates. I decided to get over myself and do tons of mistakes. At that time my boyfriend sometimes asked me to change a sentence or two as it meant something completely different than I intended. Ups!!!
Well… I was willing to be judged and I was happy. Challenged myself to be as I was and not what I wanted me to be.
Sometimes it would have been good to reread things out loud, cause I could have catched a thing or two.
And it was such a great practice to be in allowance of me, the not so perfect Lisen. Knowing things are wrong according to grammar and all that!!!
I wanted to be great and knew it would not be and also knew I was not aiming to put my soul into changing that! So why not write and contribute to
people? And especially to myself. I enjoyed it… yes, I stopped. I filled my calendar with so many things, it was not so much fun to prioritize anymore.
And it was such a great practice to be in allowance of me, the not so perfect Lisen. Knowing things are wrong according to grammar and all that!!!
I wanted to be great and knew it would not be and also knew I was not aiming to put my soul into changing that! So why not write and contribute to
people? And especially to myself. I enjoyed it… yes, I stopped. I filled my calendar with so many things, it was not so much fun to prioritize anymore.
And I have missed it as well. Funny how we can be and choose:-)
When I was writing I got to practice a lot when it came to awareness. I got aware of the reactions my post would create. As I was writing I could sense what possibly would create for the future and sometimes it was not worth it and I changed things. I could have forced things onto people and for what good? I was and am very open about my life. I don’t try to hide things or make them nicer. I know they are written from my perspective and everything I write is an interesting point of view. And we all have so many of them. Isn´t that funny and we make them so valuable. The written word!
I have resisted writing a book, its called procrastination… such a nice word for such a drag.
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I connected with the topic of space of infinite possibilities and have more even when you are happy and joyful and received what you have asked for.
Do you always want more?????
I do and what do I do...ask for more!!!!
